
Packing My Records For Mars
An eerie speculative poetry collection, merging art & science to explore our ever changing complex world and science fiction

An eerie speculative poetry collection, merging art & science to explore our ever changing complex world and science fiction

A short poetry collection featuring festive poems about love, family and the cold winter months. A great stocking filler or great gift.

Caelan is a nonbinary author of speculative fiction and poetry, inspired by their youth amongst the moors of Yorkshire, England, where ordinary lives are often entwined with the unusual. Caelan is also pursuing a career in healthcare, enjoys walking their Shih-Tzu and playing cozy games such as Fallout.
"The Night Talks" explores the world after dark, when what we know for certain, our beliefs, our hopes and fears merge. "Packing my records for Mars" is a speculative fiction poetry collection exploring the end of the world and what comes after. All internal artwork and book covers are done by the author, who wants to make the most of dabbling in art and an overpriced Adobe subscription.
Caelan is currently working on a speculative science fiction novel, loosely inspired by their latest poetry book.

Meet Ed, a man who considers himself unlucky enough to live at the end of time, and his daughter, Lelana, a kid with buckets of hope and an uncertain future. His wife, who finds herself traversing the boundary between this life and the next. Join them as they enter into the slow apocalypse, fighting to survive alongside artificial life, visitors from other worlds and humanity's left over.
Get to know Mixarthur and Dandie, a couple of grifters that made a mockery of time, through the logs they left behind that sit preserved in a museum in the distant future.
With a drifting, interwoven narrative, Packing My Records For Mars uses poetry to envision the end of Earth, the bittersweet hope of creation, exploration and the struggle of surviving regimes that emerge in dark times.
What creatures might be waiting just on the other side of the moon?

This poetry book explores the thoughts that plague us all in the dark, separated into four chapters: the creatures we fear are on the periphery, the society we live in, the complexity of self and how we deal with our mortality.
Beckon on the dying light,
so there might be a moment shaped
like an evening soft in spring
in a world without seasons.
You’d think in unbelievable times
that my mistakes would be
overrun by hunger or fatigue,
or the panic I feel
when my daughter talks
and the vespers
might hear it.
As we drive down empty roads,
I see the past stood in silence,
ageless spectres,
a second-hand respect the living
have yet to learn,
and dogs given to the wild
lay dead for reasons
that have nothing to do with
tyres, or tired humans, or
the attic cult where I was born,
where my secrets sit with
no one bothered
or breathing
to find them.
And what of the roads
when I am gone?
Who will grace them with song
and swerves
now hopes have grown
limbs enough to reach,
and dead trees are strewn about
like people thrown from a car?
Will I stand by the side of the road
in death and watch my daughter drive?
Singing out of the window,
wondering if her father ever loved
because he was so busy
trying to save her?
Will she know that I was relieved?
Will the trees and dead dogs tell her
that my poor words of wisdom
were stalled,
and made beautiful
by having not said them?
Will she know that I was at peace?
Will the road ghost of me tell her
that the attic rage in my heart
was culled
by the world’s ending howl?
-Packing my records for Mars

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I wonder what black birds are thinking,
if feathers could be strung across space,
or if fever dreams can be translated,
turned upside-down and re-arranged.
If empty space in life can be transcribed
into desires understood by creatures
on other worlds, or invisible wings
that ripple the shifting cosmos outwards.
If there’s a soul nesting in cloud’s language,
wishing to croon to us in words we know,
desperate to parse the tune of sparrows
and the softer drawl of human tongue.
Let's bhang song’s pale hours in a birdcage
and call it a library of universe.
-Packing my records for Mars

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The human on the hill-top amasses the world's wealth
in big hands, cupping love, real, false,
sieving out the lumps,
greedy, unneeded.
The hill-dweller says:
Kindness can fix the world,
and we laugh: Kindness never fixed anything.
And why is that?
The hill-dweller asks: why is that?
In those big hands there are many colourful rocks
and hearts, virile—if eaten, makes us volatile with obsession,
makes liars of delicious apathy,
appropriate passivity,
we're masters of the ordinary
and disdainful of the kind.
The hill-dweller keeps sieving the clay soil, rooting
for seeds of empathy, convinced there's a planet's worth.
Looking for some more words?
We ask, scornful, running up the hill, out of breath,
eager to push the hill-dweller off,
but loving hands hold on. Another prayer to give, hill-dweller?
Another thought to spare?
But loving hands hold on.
-The Night Talks
What if we’re seasonal?
Like the sky is grey,
blue, lit by the setting sun.
Always changing.
One moment glorious,
the next, viscous,
thick with sadness.
We are, all at once,
Summer and Winter,
and neither.
On Tuesday,
I am Spring.
Every evening,
I am autumn.
Not the desert,
not the sea.
Watercolour
of person.
-In These Skins
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Nestled inside the dry rivers of this empty canyon,
there was a city inside you but now there's none.
As the sun is setting and your volcano is aching,
I can hear coyotes in your dusky streets.
Listening in the distance from my mountainous perch
to echoing music that salts the earth,
as beating drums fade into the icy night,
I can hear coyotes in your dusky streets.
The uninterrupted sky spread with a thousand lights
and a forgotten city that rests dead in the sand,
as rocks roll through ancient neighbourhoods,
I can hear coyotes in your dusky streets.
-The Night Talks

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